I don't see anything...

When I came home from my second ultrasound, at a little under 12 weeks, Mr. W, aka Daddy, got to see the first pictures of something that mildly resembled a human being. You see, my first scan was at all of 6 weeks and a few days. They were just checking viability at that point, and from what it looked like to me, Mr. and Mrs. W were expecting a kidney bean.

Fair enough. Something was in there, and that was why mommy was "late".

Now, I have heard story upon story of how people cry and cry when they see/hear the baby's heartbeat. This looked like a worm, and the tech showed me something of a flicker that I thought I saw, but couldn't swear on it, and while I may have welled up a little, this was a tad uneventful compared to what I was told to expect.

I felt a little heartless and cold.

So the next scan, at nearly 12 weeks, I was ready. I sat back, thanking the good Lord that this was an external ultrasound(another day, another topic) and waited to see something.

There it was. In all its glory. Head bigger than its body. Bouncing around in my belly. It had arms and legs. I didn't cry, but felt this overwhelming sense of happiness and pride. That is my baby. My little kidney bean. It has arms and legs! Just way too cool. It moved around some and I got to see fingers on a hand, and even saw the baby turn around and throw up its arms when it was tired of being poked at. (yes, I know movement is not conscious at that age, but let me have my moment) With a few good pictures, I came home thrilled to be able to show Mr. W all of our progress.

He looked at the picture, I pointed out the nose, mouth and eyes, and he said "I don't see anything".

There was an episode of Friends when Rachel was pregnant and could not see her baby in the ultrasound pictures. I always feared this would be me. So many friends had showed theirs to me and though I tried to act like I saw it, I totally didn't. I was so relieved when I was able to see exactly what was in the pictures, but I felt so bad for Mr. W.

At least he's being honest.